my grateful heart

As Eddie tried to fall asleep last night, he rolled to me and said his hand hurt.

I took it in my hands and traced his palm and fingers with my fingers trying to ease any aches he had.

I watched his eyes flutter almost shut, as he took his hand out of mine to roll into a sleepy little ball, but before he nodded off for good, he leaned in and gave me a small delicate kiss on the back of my hand and smiled.

“I love you, mommy,” he whispered through his smile.

And then he was asleep.

I thought about all I had to do and how I should get up and leave my sleeping buddy and get to work.

But I was so tired.

So I let my eyes close and I started counting my blessings…

I have a sweet four-year old who is not shy to tell those he loves how much they mean to him.

I have an adventurous 18-month old who makes everyone happier with his belly laugh and his smile.

I have a husband who is truly my partner in this world.

I have three nephews and two nieces in this world, one nephew on the way, and one niece in heaven.

I have a faith that comforts my soul in hard times.

I have understanding students who are Ok not knowing the full-story, but understand that family comes first.

I have a family who loves and supports each other.

I have a mom and a mother-in-law who are excited to each take a grandson this weekend so Cortney and I can help a friend celebrate his birthday.

I have friends who check in with me just to say, “hey. thinking of you.” I”m not sure they know how much that means to me.

I have the best therapist.

I have a job…er jobs…that I love.

I have co-workers who make me laugh.

I have students who make me smile.

I’m good at what I do.

I have so much…

and then my eyes grew heavy and I let myself doze next to my little boy.

When I woke up, instead of going upstairs and getting out my homework and computer, I brushed my teeth and climbed into bed.

Because sometimes it’s better to be rested.

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I am excited to announce that I have been included as a contributor to a free ebook, Embracing Life: Loving Boldly with a Grateful Heart. You can get it and read my words (and those of the other 22 contributors) here or by clicking the cover of the book below.

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