perfect 10

My dearest Alice Katherine,

You turned ten months old this past week.  Double digits. Two hands. Ten.

If you're not moving, it's because you are sleeping.

If you’re not moving, it’s because you are sleeping.

Over Christmas break you decided to start checking milestones off your to do list. You were just starting to crawl and pull up to your knees last month. Now you are pulling to standing next to pretty much anything. You cruise along the furniture and the other night you crawled on top of your brothers’ humidifier to peek into Eddie’s bed at him!

To most people, you are just doing your baby thing not too differently from your brothers. Daddy and I see the little differences though. For one, you crawl with your feet up in the air. It’s so funny! Your brothers wore holes in socks and slippers because their feet dragged behind them when they crawled. You put your little feet up and crawl this way and that with your little booty wiggling behind you.

It is getting near to impossible to get a non-blurry photo of you...unless you are sleeping.

It is getting near to impossible to get a non-blurry photo of you…unless you are sleeping.

You play differently than your brothers too. Most times, you can sit in the same spot for quite a while playing with what is around you. You don’t need anyone to sit next to you constantly (like Eddie did) and you don’t pick things apart (like Charlie did). In fact, you seem to know what toys are for and play with them accordingly. For instance, you will spend thirty minutes putting the shapes in and out of the shape cookie jar thing we have. Your brothers just threw them.

using cups to put things in. over and over and over.

using cups to put things in. over and over and over.

You are finally starting to warm up to eating some food rather than just bottles. Baby food is still just sometimes, but you will eat graham crackers and townhouse crackers, the occasional pretzel stick, bananas, and apple pieces. You even had a french fry last night and was a fan. You also like chicken, but scrunch your nose at ham and broccoli. Tonight I’m going to see how you feel about meatloaf.

all the sass

all the sass

You are the happiest, smiley-est baby in the entire world. You wake up happy. You go to bed happy. You chuckle at your brothers and your daddy. The only time I hear whining is if you are tired and want to be cuddled or you are hungry. I say this every month, I know, but it amazes me how joyful you are. Always.

I have gone through some yucky days in the past month, my love. And one of the only things that keeps me going is your scrunchy smile. You’ve also started waving, clapping, and giving kisses. You love to cuddle, but you are a mover too. You are all the most wonderful things a baby can be all wrapped up into one sweet Alice.

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While you’ve always been “chatty”–making lots of sounds all the time–lately when you are sad or looking for cuddles you will repeat “mum mum mum mum” and when you are happy and looking for someone to see you doing a new “trick” like clapping or an old one like “so big”, you repeat “da da da da”. It’s beginning to seem like you are starting to differentiate between “mum mum” and “da da” as people too.

You are very into grabbing noses and looking at me until I say, “nose”. You got a few babies for Christmas and there is one in particular you like to hug and give kisses to.

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This first year is going so quickly. In just two short months we will be celebrating your very first birthday. I wish I knew why babies had to grow so fast–I already miss your fuzzy little newborn head. But you know what? Watching your scrunchy nosed smile and your discovering new things every day is such a joy.

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We love you so much, Miss Alice Beans–or “Beansy Girl” as your brothers call you. You bring smiles and love and happiness to our family every day.

Rock on, sweetie pie. Rock on.

Mum mum mum

the first letter

Dear Baby #2,

Huh.  I wish I had a better name for you than “Baby #2”.  We have a few real names floating around for you already, but those are waiting until we find out if you are a boy or a girl.

I have to be honest, there are a LOT of guesses out there already that say “girl”.  Now, if you are really a boy?  I don’t want you to feel bad that so many people are guessing girl.  I think a lot of it is wishful thinking.  You know, since we have a boy already.  But many people guessed your big brother was a girl too and that was not true, so you can’t put too much stock in guessing.

Daddy and I don’t really have a guess yet.

It’s hard to guess.  Mostly because it doesn’t matter to us.  We just want you.

Can you remember that?  We want you very, very much.

I need to make sure you know that because I am going to be honest with you.

It’s hard being pregnant with you.  At least so far.

Baby, I am sick all the time.  And when I am not sick, I am exhausted.  Or I have a bad headache from not being able to sleep at night because my sinuses are constricting.

The doctor has me on anti-nausea pills and I am really still pretty miserable.

There are many days when I wonder if I am going to make it through this first trimester.  I cry a lot.

I know you hear this.   Or at least sense it.

Please know that this is all worth it.  All the bad that I am feeling is so worth it if it means you will make it to us healthy in March.

Daddy is keeping this family running so I can focus on growing you.

He is so busy with your big brother and keeping the dishes and the laundry done.  He is pretty amazing.  I can’t wait for you to meet him.  Soon, when you get bigger,  you will hear him talk to you and feel his hand when you kick me.

We haven’t done much to prepare this house for one more person yet.

Your brother, Eddie’s, toys are all over the house and his new room isn’t done yet.  We haven’t gotten me a bigger car yet either.  It’s been pretty much all about my being exhausted.

But don’t think we aren’t excited.

We so are.

I have put away all my “regular” clothes and decided to wear stretchy and/or maternity clothes because even though I have lost weight since being pregnant with you, my middle is already thicker.

I am told this is normal with the second child.  I think people are just being nice to me.  But I’ll take it because maternity clothes are WAY more comfy than my regular work clothes.

Whenever I think about baby stuff, I start to day dream about you.

I can’t help but wonder what you’ll be like.  Will you be like your brother as a newborn or will you be a good sleeper?  Will you be a good eater?  Will you be cuddley or would you rather be laid down?

Will you have your brother’s curls?  Will you have my blue eyes?  Will you have your daddy’s dimples?

Will you be colicky and gassy and need soy formula like your brother?

It’s ok if you do.

Daddy and I dealt with it once, we can do it again.

We love you.

You are a Sluiter.

Get excited.

We are.