Eight Weeks

“Hi mom. How did you sleep?”

Every day for a week this was my morning greeting.

Every day for a week Eddie and I moved into a comfortable buddy relationship that we have never had before.

Every day for a week I marveled at how Charlie went from my mushy little baby into a full on little so-and-so walking and babbling and being full of being Charlie.

Every night I fell into bed completely exhausted.

It was a wonderful exhaustion.

There were times when Eddie and I faced off, when he stopped using his words and instead used his screams and grunts.

There were times when I thought I might lock Charlie in his room for the rest of the day because he wouldn’t stop climbing on ALL THE THINGS (oh yeah, because he does that now).

I learned that Charlie is not ready to drop his morning nap unless we are out and about and super busy, but I also learned that his limit is 3 hours of nap a day.  Doesn’t matter how it’s broken up or when it is, 3 hours. Limit.  Otherwise? We are all up all night with someone who wants to party. Ahem…Charlie.

I learned that Eddie has a voice and that voice has something to say.  When Eddie is heard, his behavior vastly improves.  Every choice was talked over between the two of us.  Cereal or pancakes for breakfast?  Grapes or bananas?  Stop for gas now or later?  Should I have another cup of coffee or have some water?  Should I put Bird down for nap now or later?  Is it a cleaning day or a relaxing day?

Sometimes we decided he didn’t need a nap that day and he helped me with laundry and cleaning and playing Legos and entertaining Charlie and racing Mario Kart and making dinner.

We read books together and napped together and cuddled together and ate together.

He told me stories and made me laugh.

He broke my heart telling me when kids were not nice to him and how he didn’t say anything.

We talked about why flowers and plants and pets and people have to die, and how there is a time for new things to be born and grow.

He asked questions and made observations.  I asked him questions in returned and offered explanation when I had it.

Charlie discovered he can go pretty fast on two feet rather than two knees/two hands.  He found that he can climb on the footstool, the chair, and the couch.  He can also fall.  A million times.  But not a million-and-one times.  Nope.  That is when he suddenly got on his tummy and slide down feet first.  And clapped for himself.

Charlie learned the art of pushing boundaries.  How close can I get to touching something before I am redirected?  Does crying help? No, it does not. Darn.

Charlie protested milk and insisted on a bottle at least twice a day with FORMULA, NOT MILK, MOM! And if I insisted on milk? The bottle came flying back at me and wailing ensued.

Sometimes you choose your battles.

I watched two little men that at one time were little blobs growing in my tummy.  Now they are people with personalities and they are making their presence known with clapping and screeching  and dancing and singing along to the Sofia the First soundtrack.

And now we are back to our routine of daycare and work.  A different kind of exhaustion that is not nearly as satisfying.

But it’s just eight more weeks.

Eight more weeks until we can go back to the business of playing.

Pure Imagination

Hold your breath Make a wish Count to three

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Saturday we had Charlie’s birthday party.

It was Willy Wonka themed.

(cutie shirt by Sew Curly)

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printables by One Sweet Party

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Come with me And you’ll be In a world of Pure imagination Take a look And you’ll see Into your imagination

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Almost everyone we love most in the world was able to come.

There were a few who either live too far away to make the trip or were enjoying some relaxation in Mexico who had to be with us in heart instead.

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We ate tacos.

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People talked and laughed and enjoyed themselves.

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We had a treat table.

The Candy bar was for the kids to take home treat bags.

We had Augustus Gloop’s Chocolate Bars, Violet Beauregard’s Chewing Gum, Veruca Salt’s Golden Eggs, Mike Teevee’s Mike n Ikes, and Charlie Bucket’s Wonka Mix

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Smash cake and cupcakes by Zeeland Bakery.

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Fizzy Lifting Drink = one 2-liter of sprite + one bottle of white grape juice + sherbet (I used rainbow, for obvious reasons)

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We’ll begin With a spin Traveling in The world of my creation What we’ll see Will defy Explanation

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If you want to view paradise Simply look around and view it Anything you want to, do it Wanta change the world? There’s nothing To it

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There is no Life I know To compare with Pure imagination Living there You’ll be free If you truly wish to be

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If you want to view paradise Simply look around and view it Anything you want to, do it Wanta change the world? There’s nothing To it

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There is no Life I know To compare with Pure imagination Living there You’ll be free If you truly Wish to be

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“We are the music makers… and we are the dreamers of dreams.”

Happy birthday, Charlie.

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Thank you to Cort and Liz Ann for taking a million pictures for me.

Lyrics from “Pure Imagination” from the Willy Wonka soundtrack

And just for fun…a comparison of the boys on their first birthdays…

Eddie on left, Charlie on right.

Eddie on left, Charlie on right.

Nothing Says Happy Birthday Like a Homemade Cocoa Cake

Wednesday was Charlie’s birthday, and while his party is not until today, we still needed to celebrate.

With Eddie we started the tradition of taking him out for dinner on his actual birthday, last year to Red Robin.  We love Red Robin because it’s such a great place to take kids.  Eddie loves almost everything on their menu, plus he loves that they have pictures on the kids menu, so we go through and circle what he wants: a main dish, a side dish, and a drink.

When we asked Eddie where he thought Charlie would like to go for his first birthday, he agreed that Red Robin would be the best ever place to go.

Once there, Charlie totally approved.

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Of course, you can’t have a birthday without birthday cake.  And even though our waitress had all the servers sing to Charlie and bring him a giant Sundae, we really needed birthday CAKE, amiright?

Tuesday I had shot out of my staff meeting like a bolt of lightening to get home before all the boys so I could squeeze in baking a cake before dinner had to be started.

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Since Charlie is not old enough to choose his cake flavor, I chose one of my favorites for him: homemade cocoa cake with cream cheese frosting.  My aunt used to make it, and I loved it so much I asked for the recipe.

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As you can see, The Bird loved it too.

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He approached it with caution at first, but once he tasted that sweet, sweet nectar that is cream cheese frosting, he proceeded to suck all the frosting off the cake.  Then he picked up the cake and destroyed it.  It was awesome.

Cocoa Cake

Ingredients

  • 2 cups sugar
  • 1/2 cup cocoa
  • 2 1/2 cups flour
  • 2 teaspoons soda
  • 1 teaspoon salt
  • 3/4 cups shortening (my aunt uses margerine, I use cocnut oil, but you could used Crisco or butter, I suppose)
  • 1 cup sour mik
  • 2 teaspoons vanilla
  • 1 cup hot black coffee

Directions

Step 1
blend together the sugar, cocoa, and flour.
Step 2
add soda, salt, shortening, sour milk, and vanilla. Beat together for 1 minute.
Step 3
add the coffee and beat for 2 minutes
Step 4
bake in a 9x13 pan at 350 degrees F for about 45 minutes.

Cream Cheese Frosting

Ingredients

  • 1 packet cream cheese (8 oz)
  • 1/2 cup butter or margarine
  • 2 teaspoons vanilla
  • 5-6 cups powdered sugar

Directions

Step 1
beat the cream cheese, butter, and vanilla until light and fluffy.
Step 2
Gradually add 2 cups of powdered sugar, beating well. Gradually add additional powdered sugar until you reach the desired consistency.
Step 3
This amount will frost tops and sides of two 8-or 9-inch layers. (Half the recipe to frost a 13x9 cake). Cover and keep frosted cake in the fridge.

It was a happy birthday, indeed.

What is your favorite birthday treat?

The Year of the Bird

A little nonsense now and then is relished by the wisest men.*

Dear Charlie,

You are one year old today.

Do you remember what we were doing a year ago?  Do you remember what it was like to be a part of me?  Do you miss the safe, warm womb where you couldn’t feel cold or hungry ever?

I often wonder these things when I look at you.

I also wonder how you were ever so tiny.

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How you were ever my little Bird.

Now you are my Big Bird, but that is dopey to say, so we just call you Bird.

Bird.

The name has stuck.  I don’t know why or how, but everyone calls you Bird, not just me.  Daddy and Eddie…even Renae calls you Bird.

It’s completely ridiculous and we love it.

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In case you didn’t notice, we do ridiculousness and nonsense around here quite a bit.  We truly believe that it’s important not to take ourselves so seriously, and we are trying to help you learn this.

So we laugh. A lot.

we exhaust you with our shenanigans.

we exhaust you with our shenanigans.

“There is no life I know to compare with pure imagination.”

Charlie, you amaze me.

You are SO DARN CLOSE to walking.  I think you can do it. You BOOK it when you are holding on to something or someone’s fingers.  But so far, you have only taken two tiny steps on your own.  You can stand on your own, no big deal, but instead of walking from there, you slide down to your buns and crawl to where you can hang out, and THEN walk.

Stinker.

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This past weekend you found your tongue.  It’s constantly out of your mouth.  You have also found our faces.  You poke our eyes and pick at our nose and stick your fingers in our ears and mouth.  I have been trying to teach you the body parts, but once I start doing that you become uninterested.

I hope this is not a trend.

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You play so well all by yourself, finding toys and pulling on things and exploring.  As long as you have something to occupy you, you’re content.  Eddie was totally into the TV by this age, but you don’t care much for it.  You would rather be exploring.

I think this ability is going to mean you are good at focusing on problem solving or creating new ideas.  You think it’s GREAT when Eddie plays with you. He has a HUGE imagination and you are more than willing to laugh at his antics.

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I hope you guys always share this love of pretend. Of using your imaginations.  Of letting your life have whimsy and fun.

“We are the music makers… and we are the dreamers of dreams.”

You are full of nonsense. You love to laugh at Eddie and you are finally finding your voice.  You are normally pretty quiet, but when you start in on babbling, boy, you get going. And it gets loud.

Your current babble montage usually consists of “dee dee dee” (which we think means Eddie) and “da da da” (which we think means daddy).  You will occasionally say “mummmm” (Daddy tries to say you are saying Mommy, but it’s really pretty random and almost never directed at anything).

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And you are starting to get into music!

The theme to Mickey Mouse Clubhouse is one that will get your attention every time, but you also will start dancing when your activity table places certain songs that Eddie dances to.  When Eddie was small, daddy would take him into our room to wake me up on weekends with “dance party” on the ipod.  This past weekend he tried it with you, and you LOVED it.

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Just like your brother, a tune with a good beat with get you doing the Baby Dance.  You know, the one where you stand up and bend at the knees repeatedly to the beat.  And the big smiles and the clapping.  I love it.

“The suspense is terrible… I hope it’ll last.”

I don’t know what your next year will hold, but I am excited for it.

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I am trying hard not to dwell too much on your first year.  I am celebrating it because it was amazing.  You are amazing.  You have brought so much laughter and joy to our family this year.  You healed me, Charlie, but you also healed your dad and your brother.

Depression ripped at us in ways we didn’t know, but you settled into this family and began filling those tears with smiles and smirks.  With snuggles and coos.

As much as it was awesome and I wish we could freeze time, I know that is not possible. So I look to tomorrow…to the future.

To what you will look like toddling down the hall after your brother.

To how you will react to grass in your toes in a few short months.

To what your voice will sound like when words start tumbling out.

To what your hugs will feel like when you start throwing your arms around us.

I know from experience that this next year will transform you from a baby to a person with an attitude, an opinion, and a personality.

The waiting is hard, but it’s so fun at the same time.

You were born into a special family, Bird. One you loves you very much and values your individuality and what you add to us as a team.

I hope you always know you are not just a faceless part of our family, but an important part of our team.

We love you, we support you, and that can never change. Ever.

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Happy birthday, my sweet Bird.

You will get a lot of love today and this weekend.

And you deserve every single bit of it.

xxoo
Momma

Cheer up, Charlie! It's your birthday!

Cheer up, Charlie! It’s your birthday!

*All quotes from Willy Wonka

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What a Difference

Dear Sluiter Boys,

A year ago we were soaking in our last weekend as a family of three.  I was swept up and covered in emotion the whole weekend.  I remembering wishing I could memorize each saying and giggle of Eddie’s.  I wanted to watch him sleep and bury my nose in his hair.  I wanted to somehow record the feeling of Charlie moving his foot or turning to his side so I could re-feel it long after he left my body.  I wanted to grasp tightly to the small moments of Cort being a daddy to Eddie, an almost-daddy to Charlie, and a husband to me.  Those moments were so precious and he busied himself making preparations so we would all feel safe and loved during the impending upheaval of everything we knew to be our normal.

I was inside my own head a lot that weekend.

Charlie, I often wondered if you could feel my nerves and anxieties since you were rolling around in there with them.  Each time you kicked and tried to move around in your ever-shrinking womb nest, I was reminded that you would soon be here taking up so much of all of our attention.

Eddie, I worried about you, my sweet #1 son.  Would you be Ok now that you weren’t the Only?  Would you love your brother as much as it seemed like you already did?

Cortney, you had worked so hard for all of us, and I knew you were going to have to keep working so hard.  Would you resent me or Charlie?  Would you grow frustrated and discouraged?

March 12, 2012...the night before

March 12, 2012…the night before

I was just so excited to have my Charlie out of my ribs tummy, and into my arms, but at the same time I will never forget the fear that everything would go wrong.

I should have taken the unseasonably warm weather as a good sign.  A sign of growth and renewal.

the weekend before...tulips start to shoot up in the unseasonably warm weather

the weekend before…tulips start to shoot up in the unseasonably warm weather

It was hard for me to watch you, Eddie, in those days before.  You knew you were getting a baby brother out of my tummy, but you went on with your days as if nothing was changing.  You were too small to have the fears to worry about what was to come.  It doubled my worries.  That because you didn’t see this HUGE change ahead, you would suffer more.

Three days before your baby brother arrives.

Three days before your baby brother arrives.

Everyone told me it was normal to be worried…and even afraid.  Afraid my heart wasn’t big enough for TWO boys to love.  I already loved you so much, Eddie.  To the moon.  How could I possibly love another little boy like that?  Would I be enough for both of you?

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Little did I know that my heart was about to grow about a thousand times bigger.  That not only would I love you, Charlie, just as fiercely as your brother, but that I would love Eddie more and you more because of how you love each other.

playing cars with Charlie about a month before his arrival.

playing cars with Charlie about a month before his arrival.

I don’t remember when your uncle Chris was born, but he and I are the same age spread as you boys.  Watching the two of you now, I like to think that I loved Chris as fiercely as you love Charlie, Eddie.  At least I hope I did.

I can’t believe I was ever worried.

Everyone told me the gift of a sibling is the greatest gift you can give a child.  I didn’t know if I believed them.  Everything seemed perfect the way it was.  I felt daddy and I were selfish for wanting another little human.

Except, once you were here, Charlie?  It was quite apparent that the greatest gift we have given Eddie was you.  If Eddie made us a family, you made Eddie a brother.  That is a huge thing, Charlie Bird.

Playing cars with your brother within a week of his arrival.

Playing cars with your brother within a week of his arrival.

I don’t really know where I am going with this letter, guys.  I’ve just been thinking a lot lately about Charlie’s first birthday coming up.

Charlie, I can’t believe it’s been a year.  Seriously.  This year has flown by in ways I didn’t know were possible.

And Eddie, I can’t believe I ever underestimated your ability to love your brother so much.  You are his protector.  You are his comfort.  You are his laugh-maker.  You are his Eddie…his “dee dee dee”.

I look back at a year ago and can’t hardly believe that the life we had before the Bird was real.  That it happened.  That Daddy and I lived our lives and you both were just…not.  That seems impossible to me.

Tonight I watched the two of you.  I rattled off “Be careful of your brother” and “Don’t hit him with your jammy pants, Eddie!” and “You can’t play Wii until you put on underwear” and “Bird!  No licking the couch!” all without thinking about it.  Like I have been commanding these things of my sons my whole life.

My sons.

I have sons.

Daddy is a Daddy and I am a Mommy and we have sons.

Goodness what a difference a little ole year makes.

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When Eddie was small like Charlie, I never once took a sick day to stay home with him if he felt under the weather.  Cort was unemployed, so he was home with him almost every day (we did keep him in once or twice a week daycare because he LOVED it).

When Eddie was born, I had the three months of summer off (aka my maternity leave), and then I ran back to work.

I was rarely alone with Eddie when he was little since Cort wasn’t working and we did everything as a family or they two of them were home alone.

Yesterday Charlie was home sick from daycare.

Monday we got the call that he had a fever of 102 and would need to stay home the next day.  Eddie could go because he had already had “The Sickness” (and I think his little friend–his daycare mom’s daughter–gets bored without him there).

Since it was my turn to take a day off, I put in for a sub and took a stack of work home with me.

First, Charlie slept until 8:30am.  Boom.

The patient

The patient

The rest of the day was unproductive, but awesome.

As I laid on the floor on my tummy pushing balls back to Charlie as he cheerfully picked them up and tossed them at me, I realized I have never ever done something like this with Eddie.

I never got the privilege to be his sole caregiver when he was this age.

Charlie and I spent 6 months nonstop together after his birth, the first three just the two of us most of the time.  Today we got a little of that back.  I ignored my piles of work and my household responsibilities to play peek-a-boo and watch as he learned to put objects in their correct places.  He practiced pulling up on me only to let go and show off his standing alone skills.

When he needed a little rest, he found my lap and lounged there as I watch the Today show.

When Cort came home for lunch, he was doing his “look at me stand by myself routine” and he TOOK TWO STEPS toward Cortney.

We showered him in praise and kisses.

He won’t do it again.  He just laughs at me and sits each time I try.

But Tuesday, February 26 was the day Charlie took his first steps.  To his daddy.  For both of us to see.

It didn’t happen at daycare when we were at work.

He is at daycare for over 40 hours a week.  But he took his first steps on a random day at home.

I don’t remember Eddie’s first steps.

I know I wrote them down somewhere, but I feel like they happened while I was working.  To Cortney.

And even though the little traitor Charlie walked to Cortney, I got to be there.

In the front row.

Cheering.

Baby Giggles

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Charlie doesn’t laugh much.

He smiles tons, and he always has a chuckle for us if he thinks we are funny, but belly laughs are few and far between unless provoked with tickle torture play.

Yesterday he was feeling under the weather and had been very clingy.  Smiles were hard to come by let alone any chuckles or giggles.  His nose constantly ran and the drool flowed.  (Please tell me he is not getting more teeth.  Home Sluice already has 12 and he’s not even 12 months yet!)

Nothing made him smile.

Until Eddie decided he was going to entertain him.

Eddie started dancing around with an empty paper towel roll.  He claimed it was a baton and tossed it in the air.  To both of our surprise, Charlie cracked up. As in giggling uncontrollably.

Eddie and I looked at each other and I told him to do it again, so Eddie tossed the “baton” and did a little dance.  Charlie giggled so hard he had to put his is chin to his chest as he stood next to his activity table.

That was all the encouragement Eddie needed.  He started to strut around like a band major and toss the “baton” and spin around doing dance moves.

Charlie laughed so hard, tears started to well in his eyes.

And suddenly, tears sprung to my eyes.

In front of me was Eddie saving Charlie from his yucky feeling…even if just for a few moments.  Eddie made Charlie forget that he was snotty and sleepy.  He made him forget to want to cling to me.  Charlie was completely memorized and taken with his big brother.

Just as Eddie was taking away his brother’s troubles, Charlie was feeding Eddie’s need for attention.  Eddie had been whiny and pouty all day because we wouldn’t let him play with screens nonstop.  Suddenly someone wasn’t just in the room with him, but was encouraging and loving his performance.

They are brothers.

After Charlie was born, I was so worried about Eddie.  I was worried that having Charlie would somehow take away from Eddie’s happiness.

I was so wrong.

Eddie is so much more complete with his little brother by his side.  And Charlie has no idea what it’s like to not have an older brother doing everything he can to make him smile.

I used to think Charlie was trying to say “daddy” when he would grin and say “dee dee dee,” but now I think he might be saying “Eddie”.

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Friday Funnies

Eddie has a certain pair of navy and red striped socks from Old Navy he got waaay back when that were always too big to wear with shoes.  He adopted them as socks he wears with jammies and named them his “Sleepy Socks.”

Recently the sleepy socks blew out holes in the toes and heels.

Other socks wouldn’t do and I had to go to Old Navy and hunt down more striped ones.  I could only find navy and yellow stripes.

He was legit disappointed, but gave the a shot.

They were on the floor after the second night.

Just not the same, I guess.

(I may have washed and stashed the original Sleepy Socks in a shoebox of keepsakes. What?)

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Charlie might turn out to be a class clown.

He likes to make us all laugh at dinner by making VERY odd noises and strange blowing/raspberry sounds.

He even pauses with a chill little grin on his face so we can all fall over ourselves laughing at him before he starts up again.

And with that little grin, his face says, “You are such fools.  Such easy-to-entertain fools.”

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The other night I was cuddling with Eddie at bedtime (more on the new bedtime routine in another post).

He was in that place between awake and sleeping when he rolled to his side.

I caught a whiff of stale milk smell.

“Eddie? Did you toot?

“Just sleep mom. Don’t worry ’bout it.”

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Boys are gross.

I am sure girls are too, but my boys? Are gross.

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When Eddie was Charlie’s age, he used to have a Poop Spot–a place next to our bookcase that he liked to stand in (with the cupboard door open so it was like he was behind a little wall) while he did his “jobbies”.

Just recently, Charlie has been going to the same place to do his business.

I find it hilarious.

Cortney seems less amused.

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Eddie has recently learned that girls and boys do not have the same…um…equipment.

Although, he has no idea what girls actually have other than I told him the word, “vagina”.

Now, every time I go to the bathroom, I get interviewed:

“Mom? You are going to the bathroom?”

“Yup.”

“Poop?”

“Nope.  Just pee.”

“You are sitting though, right?”

“Yup.”

“Because you are a girl. You don’t have a penis. Right?”

“That’s right.”

I will admit that I never pictured myself telling my 3 year old son through a closed door that I was not, in fact, peeing out of my butt.

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Charlie kisses stuffed animals.  It’s cute.

He also kisses his reflection in the window.  Again, super cute.

But he also has fights with the baby in the window.

Loud fights.

With pounding on the window.

And stink eye at me as if I had something to do with this idiot in the window who is copying all his moves.

It is both hilariously cute and a tad crazy.

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Don’t forget about my giveaway to Baa and Boo over here.  Get something cute for a cutie in your life.

The Last Month

Dear Charlie,

This is it. The last monthly letter I will write you.  Today you are eleven months old.  Just one short month away from being a one-year old.

Yup, I'm in shock too.

Yup, I’m in shock too.

Oh, Bird.

I got so emotional thinking about this…I almost couldn’t write this letter.

This has been the absolute best eleven months ever.

Yes, there have been a few set-backs and developments in my mental wellness, but Bird, you have made me laugh away the fear and the sadness every single time.

Your personality is growing and shining through in new ways daily.

Part of it makes me sad that I don’t get to devour this newness all day, every day.  But most of me knows I am at my best for you because I don’t.  I also know that I notice each small change because we are apart during the day.

You are starting to have different smiles.  You smile one way when you see me and another way when you hear your daddy come into the room.  You have developed a mischievous grin when you know what you’re doing is naughty, and a proud one when you accomplish something you have been working on getting right.  You have a wide one that shows all your teeth (12 already! the front eight and four molars!) when you see Eddie doing something silly.

And then there is the smile the spreads when you are giggling really hard from being tickled or teased by one of us.

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You are SO close to walking.

Not only do you pull up on everything, but you cruise along anything (including the walls).  Sometimes we will hold our breath as we notice you are standing alone next to the couch or ottoman, so engrossed in whatever is in your hands you don’t realize neither of them are holding onto anything for support.  But as soon as you catch us watching, you realize what you’re doing and start flapping your arms in proud excitement.  And then you fall on your booty with your super smile plastered across your face.

You love for us to hold your hands so you can “walk” to someone else…usually daddy or Eddie.  The entire way you smile and make a happy grunting noise.

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Your happiness is contagious and you can’t be pushed to the next milestone before you are ready.

Just like we were sure you could roll and crawl, we are sure you can walk.  But until you are ready?  You won’t do it.  But the day you do, I have my suspicion it won’t just be one or two wobbly steps, but a full on run.

That is your MO, Charlie Bird.  You save it up until you can do it perfectly.

Speaking of perfectly, you have quite perfectly decided that baby food is for, well, babies. And not you.  One day you looked up at me with a mouth full of squash and let it fall out of your mouth.

And that was that.  Full on “real” food from here on out.  And you’ll eat pretty much everything.  You have given us stink eye over some of the choices, but you’ve eaten them without much prodding on our part.

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I’m not looking forward to calling you my toddler instead of my baby.  I’m not even looking forward to when you give up bottles completely for sippy cups (which you are getting darn good at using for water).  I will not be sad to stop buying formula though.

I’m looking forward to your first distinguishable words, though.  Just like with Eddie, I long to hear “momma” come from you.  You babble tons, and even seem to have certain sounds that are quite purposeful when you use them like “da da da” when you are looking at daddy or Eddie.  You also mimic some sounds we make like when I make the “brrrrrr” sound when we play with trucks and cars or when daddy blows raspberries on your tummy.

One of the not-so-great things you have started is biting.  I’m not sure if it’s because you have so many dang teeth for your age or what, but you want to bite furniture (which, Ok, Eddie did too), but you also bite people.  Hard.  This is not Ok and daddy and I are working hard to nip that behavior in the behind.

You also love to bother people.  I mean, it’s cute and I laugh, but daddy and Eddie are not laughing.  It’s totally something I do too, Bird.  If I see someone just sitting and doing something serious, I want to poke at them or burrow on them or do something to get their attention.  When you see Eddie lying on the couch, you can’t leave him alone.  You pull on his blankets, his pillow, his Lamby.  If he is playing Mario Kart, you want to sit practically in his lap.  The other night daddy was lying on the floor and you crawled into him at full speed and burrowed yourself into his side until he acknowledged you.  It cracks me right up.  Especially how you sit and grin after you get the reaction.

Oh Bird, you make me laugh.

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When people meet you, you come off as so serious.  You stare people down without much of a smile.  Even when you are concentrating on something, your bottom jaw goes out (just like daddy) and you push out those little bird lips of yours.

But once you know someone…really get comfy with them…your goofy side that I know and love tumbles out and wins hearts.

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I can’t even put into words how proud I am to be your momma.

How happy it makes me to swoop you into my arms each day.

How blessed you make our lives.

Oh how we will cherish this last month of your first year.  And then all the days after that.

Love you, Charlie Bird.

xxoo

Momma

All photos by mL photography

that dang bear

You know that saying…

“Sometimes you eat the bear and sometimes the bear eats you”?

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Well that saying sort of summed up my weekend.

It started with a surprise snow day on Friday.

I teach in an urban school district that almost never closes due to inclement weather–which West Michigan is famous for this time of year.

The weather all week had been pretty terrible.

One day there were over 400 school closings.  But not mine.

So I was shocked Friday when mine closed so early…when Cort announced I could stay in bed.

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I definitely ate the bear on Friday.

I stayed away from all the world until noon. I read, I dozed, I read some more.

I did not come out of my room…or my bed…until the clock said “p.m.”

It was the first time in probably two+ years (other than when I have been sick).

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The afternoon brought nothing but great things.

New boots–for no other reason than because she thought they would look great with my skinny jeans–from a company  friend who exudes kindness and love.

My new book from BlogHer Book Club arrived just as I finished the Anne Lamont book I was reading.

The History Channel had a Modern Marvels marathon playing.

And I did nothing but enjoy it.

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I was totally rested and ready for all the boys to get home from such a snowy day.

We had dinner as a family.

Laughed our way through family time.

The boys went to bed well.

And Cort and I were able to actually watch TV together.

On Friday, I ate that bear in one bite.

199And then Saturday arrived.

The bear, apparently, wanted revenge.

I got up around 8am to three happy boys.

But somewhere in all the “GET ALL THE THINGS DONE” of the day…

and the lack of nap from Eddie (oh yeah, we are experimenting with nap. Ugh)…

and Charlie not eating very well OR sleeping very well…

I lost it.

And the bear?

Well, he ate me.

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I feel like I am in a constant battle of being eaten by the bear and then apologizing to everyone for it being my fault.

But that is another post.

Or something to talk about in therapy next week.

Whatever.

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Can’t win ‘em all, I s’pose.

Sunday the bear and I met in the middle.

It seemed that perhaps he was going to take a healthy bite again.

But I just took a nap.

It’s the whole theory of playing dead so that the bear will avoid you.

And he did.

I wouldn’t say I ate him, but he sure didn’t eat me.

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I’m thankful for my family.

For Anne Lamont books that say exactly exactly what I need to read.

For the #SheReadsTruth Soul Detox plan.

For my SAD Lamp.

For friends who are lights in my darkness…even when they don’t know I have darkness.

Or that they are being a life-giving light.

Mostly, I am thankful for the three guys I am blessed to live with.

I know those days that the bear eats me are rough.

But on the days when I eat the bear?

Oh yeah.

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I broke out my DSLR camera for the first time in months on Sunday.  Whatcha think? I feel rusty.

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