Always There

This weekend while digging through my purse for some aspirin for a teenager with a headache, I pulled a pipey (pacifier) out of my purse.

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We both laughed when she said to me, “I guess you can’t put being a mom on hold even for a couple days, huh Mrs Sluiter?”

I realized what she said was incredibly true; I am never really apart from my boys.

When we were in Chicago with just Eddie, each of us commented numerous times about things Charlie would like. Eddie even pointed out the fourth seat in all the restaurants adding, “if Charlie was here, that is where he would sit.”

On this trip, I caught myself smiling at things that Cortney would have commented on with an inside joke or one of his dry, witty comments. I saw places I wanted us to go to together.

I thought often of Eddie and how he would have either loved everything about the Rain Forest Cafe or he would have been terrified by all the loud noises. I imagined him seeing Navy Pier and going to the Children’s Museum and loving the BIG BOATS in the bay.

I smiled when I saw the stuffed lions at the Rain Forest Cafe and how Charlie’s immediate reaction would have been to ROAR at them. I said words the way my boys do, even though nobody really “got it” but me.

Before falling asleep I put a pillow on the side of the bed where Cortney would have been so I could roll over and put my butt on it the way I back up to him (he hates it, calls me a bed hog). I also imagined holding his hand as I fell asleep so I wouldn’t feel lonely in that bed alone.

When I woke the next morning my first thought was my three boys back home, and as if they knew that, a text came through with a picture from Cortney of the two little guys smiling over their breakfast plates with a “Good morning, Momma!” caption.

I had so much fun on the trip. While I wouldn’t call it relaxing because we were so busy, teenagers are less needy than little ones, so other than handing out aspirin from time to time, there wasn’t much “mothering” I had to do. ย It was a break.

But I was so glad to get home to my favorite three dudes in the whole world.

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And I know they were happy to see me too…even if it was just for the stuffed animals and sombreros I brought home for them.

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You all have overwhelmed me with your gracious kindness that you are showing to me and my students. All the book donations that have come in so far have bumped my sad little classroom library from only 104 books to almost 320!! If you want to take a look at my wish list, you can find it here.

Also at the tail end of last week I found out that an article I co-authored will be published in the Language Arts Journal of Michigan.

And if those things weren’t awesome enough, I found yesterday (Monday) that I have been chosen as one of BlogHer’s 2014 Voices of the Year.

The good is very good.

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About Katie

Just a small town girl...wait no. That is a Journey song. Katie Sluiter is a small town girl, but she is far from living in a lonely world. She is a middle school English teacher, writer, mother, and wife. Life has thrown her a fair share of challenges, but her belief is that writing through them makes her stronger.

Comments

  1. I know exactly what you mean. On my 24-hour break, for which I felt no guilt for taking, I thought about my boys all the time. I knew they were in good hands of course, but I wondered what they were doing, if they missed me, what they had for dinner, if they were having fun with their dad and uncle.

    And congratulations on VOTY, so well-deserved! Also , yay books!!
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  2. The people in our families are never far away from us, even when we are apart. That sense of belonging is my safety net, my security blanket. I’m not away from them much, but when I am, I do what you did last weekend – see the world through their eyes. Great post.
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  3. I am so glad you won VOTY! You are very passionate about writing and work hard to make yours great, so the honor is well deserved!

  4. So happy for VOTY and for your books, and for three boys who love you. ๐Ÿ™‚
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  5. I love that they are always with you, even if not physically. That is LOVE right there. ๐Ÿ™‚

    And congrats, my friend, on ALL THE GOOD!! ๐Ÿ˜€
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  6. That is so great to read! Three cheers for a banner week!
    And even though I love to get away from my three kids for awhile, I’m always so happy to return home to them (unless they happen to be in a bad mood the moment I pull into the driveway… LOL).
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  7. Congrats on BlogHer VOTY! It is so true that our family is always with us – even when we are apart!
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  8. It is so true, once we are mothers they come with us everywhere we go – as part of us stays with them, I am sure.
    Congratulations on all of the good, Katie!
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  9. First, BIG CONGRATS! what an amazing thing!

    I rarely am away from home, so while I miss everyone, I am very glad to get away. so far it’s only happened 3 times in 9 years. yep. one was 24 hrs, the other were actual weekends. And it felt soooo good.
    I just get so tired of these 4 walls, you know? It’s not even that I want away from the kids and being needed: I just want a different view every now and then.
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  10. The good is VERY good. I love following the growth of your little library. I want to contribute, but pay day is taking a while to get here.

    I love this post about how your boys are always there with you. It’s so sweet and loving. Just like you, my dear Katie.

    (SO excited to hear about VOTY. I’m going to BlogHer for the first time (!!!). Congratulations on such an amazing and well-deserved honor.)
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  11. Both my heart and my purse tend to carry my babies and their things everywhere I go! Glad you had a good trip!
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  12. Congrats on a fantastic honor and a great week!
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  13. Yay for the Blogher honor!

    I truly don’t think there is a moment in my life, even if I’m alone, that my family isn’t with me in my thoughts. “What would happen if CJ were here right now,” “I wonder what Leila is doing?” “Would Duffy like this?”
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