now

I first saw this lovely idea of doing a self-portrait post at my friend Grace’s blog.  And of course hers is stunning.  Not just the picture but her words.  She linked to this being Chelsey’s original idea.  Whoever thought it up…I love it.  And I am doing it.

So here we go…

Obsessing over…
The plans surrounding Charlie’s birth.  Sometimes I think knowing the date and time is just as bad for me as not knowing.  Luckily my mother-in-law is saving the day and taking Eddie in the morning so he can be FIRST to meet his brother.  That is VERY important to me for some reason.   And then we are saying no visitors until 4:00ish when people start getting off from work so I can actually rest and have alone time with my newborn…something I didn’t get last time.  But I can’t stop thinking about it.  The weird thing is that I really loved my hospital stay last time and I am hoping to love it just as much this time.  Weird? Maybe.

Working on…
Growing a baby, making long-term sub plans, giving all my free time to Eddie, and being nice to Cortney even when there is a foot in my ribs.

We are also perpetually working on Eddie’s Big Boy Room.

Thinking about…
What Charlie will look like…what will it be like to have two boys…what will it be like to sniff a baby head again…what Charlie’s personality will be like (please be chill like your daddy, Charlie)…how something has switched in my brain and I am totally looking forward to five plus months off from work to learn to be a mom of two….how much our lives are about to change.

Anticipating…
all the days on the calendar with NO PLANS and hoping to keep some of that just the way it is…and not apologize for it.

Listening to…
At this exact moment…The Grammys.  Lately, I have reignited my crazy love for Pearl Jam and cannot stop listening to live shows every morning on my drive in to work.

I’m also trying to listen to my body and my mind and my heart and doing what they need instead of what others might want.  That is where I went astray when I had Eddie and I refuse to do that again.

Eating…
Surprisingly well for being 9 months pregnant.  Small, fairly good for me meals and lots of fruit.

And lots and LOTS of peanut butter m&ms.

Wishing…
For a smooth rest of my pregnancy and a happy, healthy baby.

For a date with my cute husband ASAP after this baby is out and I can go up and down stairs again.

For ppd/a to just stay the crap away from me this time.

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About Katie

Just a small town girl...wait no. That is a Journey song. Katie Sluiter is a small town girl, but she is far from living in a lonely world. She is a middle school English teacher, writer, mother, and wife. Life has thrown her a fair share of challenges, but her belief is that writing through them makes her stronger.

Comments

  1. This such a neat idea! You will look back at this post and remember this last few days if pregnancy fondly. Yes. You will. Wish I liked how I look in pictures do I would seriously consider doing this myself.

  2. OpinionsToGo says

    So sweet…a photographic diary…love it!

  3. Well. I’m NOT waiting until 4:00 to visit. The boys and I will be in the waiting room at 8:00 am sharp.

    JUST KIDDING 🙂 Did you just panic about having to tell Cort to tell me NO WAY! Haha! I think that is a GREAT idea. You will love that time with you and your new family of four and your new sweet Charlie. And then you will probably be ready for some visitors instead of feeling like “when will these people leave so I can nap?!”

    We’ll wait as long as you want, so if you change your mind about 4:00 and need more time, we’ll love you and respect that. Can’t wait to meet you Charlie!!

  4. I can’t believe how close you are to the end!!! So exciting! 🙂

  5. Those glasses really do look great on you.

    I tried watching the Grammys . . . and I couldn’t. Your kids would think I’m impossibly old, I fear.

    And having the brothers meet before any other family is a truly, truly magnificent thing.

  6. No. Apologies. Ever.

    (And I can’t believe he’s almost here…)

  7. I wish with all of my heart that you don’t ever experience PPD.
    And I used to dream about what Chunk would look like all the time.
    Wanna hear something weird…
    When I was pregnant, I loved to eat spoonfuls of spaghetti sauce right from the jar…
    It was healthy 😉

  8. What a neat post, I can’t believe you are 9 months already, although I’m sure you can. Peanut M&M’s are total protein :).

  9. I love this idea too and will be doing it soon myself.

    Nine months?! Already? That went by so fast. You are in the home stretch, lady!

  10. in exactly one month you will be holding your baby. your heart will burst. YAY!!!

  11. The hospital I stayed at had these fabulous signs on the door that said various things (feeding baby, doctor/nurse visiting, mama eating, etc.), but my favorite one was the “Don’t disturb! Mama and baby are getting some alone time!” 🙂

    Lovely words and a lovely photo! I can’t believe that you’re only a MONTH away!

  12. You’ll love being a mom to two boys! I felt all these same things going into Boy 2’s birth. We found a rhthym so totally different than before, but it was good. 🙂 Great idea to keep visitors to a minimum!! I know you’re excited, and nervous. It’s gonna be wonderful 🙂

  13. I cannot wait to hear that Charlie is here!