on turning two

one week old

You are the same.
But different.

You arrived with wisps of brown hair
and eyes that were almost always
closed.

Loud squawks and cries filled
our once
quiet house.

Arms and lets moved
involuntarily and separate
from the rest of you.

Stretching, twitching, rooting
looking for a warm hand or
your next meal.

Painfully vulnerable to cool air
in the house or
the hot blast of the outdoors.

Too much air in your bottle and
you bellowed with pain in your belly.

Too many blankets and
your skin developed a heat rash.

Every moment was a delicate balance.

Each second with you I held my breath.

You are the same.
But different.

You call out to me each morning:
Ma Ma!  Ma  Ma!

Despite the water and comb
your blond curls
do as they please.

Your wide, blue eyes marvel at
passing trucks and bikes.  They glisten
with desperation
when you believe I am leaving.  They twinkle
with mischief
when you reach for the clock on the shelf.

Our never-quiet house is filled with
your language.

We strain to understand the syllables you string together:
Pop-top, How-uu? cucks wooom. ap jews eees!

Small legs carry you
deliberately at top speed
around the island
down the hall
out the door into the sunshine.

Straining toward independence as you
pull from my hand
in parking lots and stores.

Seemingly indestructible
as you don’t quite
stick the landing at the bottom
of the slide.

Boo boos are kissed away.

Hugs are quick.

Every moments is filled with new.

Each second with you I hold my breath.

You are the same.
But different.

24 monthsHappy birthday, my sweet Eddie Bear.

I love you.

************

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About Katie

Just a small town girl...wait no. That is a Journey song. Katie Sluiter is a small town girl, but she is far from living in a lonely world. She is a middle school English teacher, writer, mother, and wife. Life has thrown her a fair share of challenges, but her belief is that writing through them makes her stronger.

Comments

  1. What a beautiful poem! You have a great way of capturing emotion with your words.

  2. Aww, this was so sweet. Happy Birthday Eddie!

  3. It’s incredible how different they are after just two years of life. Happy birthday Eddie!

  4. Awww. Beautiful, Kate, just beautiful.

    Happy 2nd Birthday Eddie!

  5. Aww! Love it! Happy Birthday to Eddie! Hope you all have a wonderful time celebrating!

  6. Oh this is so beautifully sweet I can hardly stand it. Happy Birthday to Eddie!

  7. Happy Birthday!!! 2 is a fun age!!

  8. Happy Birthday Eddie!! His expression is priceless in his baby picture; he looks like he’s already plotting something mischevious.

    And I love when you do poetry. Your emotions are so clearly expressed.

  9. What a sweet post. Happy birthday! Yay for 2!

  10. Happy Birthday little guy!!!

  11. Awww! Well said, Kate. Happy Birthday Eddie!

  12. He’s a cutie and the blonde curls are so so sweet. And I love his name.

  13. awww, the tears. This was so gorgeous, I hope you print and frame it and give it to Eddie, read it to him weekly, so he knows just how amazing he is to you.

    he is SUCH A BEAUTIFUL Kiddo, look at those curls. Enjoy his birthday, wishing you Congrats on getting to 2 with him my friend. xoxoxo

  14. Happy Birthday, Eddie! I always love reading your posts. So beautiful and heart warming. =)

  15. Happy birthday to your little man!!

  16. Awww…all I can is awww! Oh and Happy Happy Birthday!!

  17. Happy, happy birthday to him! So much the same but so different!

  18. Beautiful! I cant believe he is 2!! Happy Birthday Eddie!

  19. Love. Happy birthday Eddie. Xoxo

  20. What a beautiful birthday tribute! “Every moment was a delicate balance” that captures motherhood alright.

  21. Aww, so beautiful! 🙂 It’s amazing how quickly our babies grow…

  22. This child is gorgeous!
    Happy Birthday Eddie!
    What a lucky boy you are!

  23. What a world of difference two short years makes, huh? Happy Birthday to your baby boy.

  24. How sweet!

  25. Gorgeous gorgeous gorgeous…the words, the pictures, the love.

    This is my favorite part:

    “Every moment was a delicate balance.

    Each second with you I held my breath.”

    Yes. yes. yes.

    I’ve fallen behind in reading this week; so caught up in our own celebrations, here.
    But oh how I loved this post.

    Happy happy days to you all.
    XO

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