you said it, kid.

Dear Eddie,

I just put you down for your last nap of our spring break together, and I am sad about it.

No really, I am.

You might think I am a horrible mother for saying this, but I dreaded spring break.

Oh, I needed the break from work badly, but the idea of staying home alone with you every day and not having a break gave me so much anxiety.

When you were born, the two of us were home alone together for almost three months.

It did not go well.

Daddy got laid off when you were four months old and stayed home with you for 17 months.

The days or hours that you and I had alone together were few.  This semester we have had Monday and Wednesday evenings.  They are usually hit and miss in the “going well” department.

So like I said, with spring break approaching?  I was terrified of you.

And as I suspected, we started out sort of rocky, but as the break progressed?  Something happened.

We found a flow.

Mornings became our favorite time together (yes, mom, you read that correctly).

Between 7:00 and 8:00 am every day, I would slowly wake to your chatter in the other room.

Even though I wanted to stay sleeping, knowing that you would have a big smile was a bigger pull than my pillow.

As I could hear you counting, I would wake the house up by starting coffee, opening blinds, and finding Handy Manny on Disney.

By the time I was spitting my toothpaste into the sink you would be calling, “Daaaeeee”.  I would smirk knowing you forgot that it was not Daddy getting you up.

You would smile and point at all the items you had tossed from the crib.

You would chatter on about things only you knew as I turned off your nightlight and humidifier.

As the coffee percolated, you and I would mesh into each other on the couch for some Disney channel until you were ready to explore the world.

Sometime midweek, I taught you to finally say, “maaa maa!” although I had my doubts that you associated it with me and were not just mimicking what I was saying.

We had construction crews in and out this week.  We had playdates.  We had fun.

Our mornings were filled with books and trucks and Little People villages and trains.

And then this morning, after reading Where is the Green Sheep for the third time, I asked you “where is Eddie?”

You pointed at your chest and nodded while carefully pronouncing, “Eh-ee”.

I beamed with pride all the way from the tips of my toes, “That’s right!!!  And I love Eddie!  More than all the green sheep in the world!”

Then I cautiously asked, “And were is momma?”

You scrunched up that nose into your mischievous smile and pointed at me.

I was about to praise you for getting it right when you nodded with each syllable saying, “maa maa”.

Oh Eddie.

I couldn’t contain myself.

I grabbed you and hugged you so hard you said, “noooooo”.

So I tickled you instead.

We both shouted “MAA MAA, EH-EE!”” together over and over.

And fell over in a fit of ridiculous giggles.

I think Daddy is right.  You and I?  Are a lot alike.

That makes me happy.

Now I have a Goofball in Crime.

I love you to the moon and back.

With a drum on my head.

Love,

Maa Maa

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About Katie

Just a small town girl...wait no. That is a Journey song. Katie Sluiter is a small town girl, but she is far from living in a lonely world. She is a middle school English teacher, writer, mother, and wife. Life has thrown her a fair share of challenges, but her belief is that writing through them makes her stronger.

Comments

  1. oh he said it!!! this makes me cry happy tears for you!!

  2. Oh my GOD!!!! I’m sitting here weeping at my desk and hoping no one catches me! I’m just so darn happy for you!

  3. oh yeah!!!!!! what a way to finish spring break. like Mrs. Jen B, I’m in tears… so happy for you!!! one of these days, you’ll ask him to stop calling your name! 😉 but until then, enjoy it!

  4. So happy for you! Way to go EH-EE, your MAA MAA is so proud! 🙂 I’m sure it was a spring break you’ll never forget!

  5. YYYYYYYYAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!! I know how badly you wanted that. So, so happy for you.

  6. tears in my eyes! yay!
    Enjoy your last days with the Ed-ster!

  7. Ddie! :)YayE

  8. Love it! Thanks for sharing. It actually brought tears to my eyes!

  9. YAY!!!
    Oh, Katie!

    Oh, just… yay!

  10. like any good relationship, it takes time to feel the flow. And some days? The flow is just not there, and that’s ok.

  11. Yay!!! High fives all around!

  12. Aw, EH-EE, that’s the sweetest! I am so glad that your spring break exceeded all expectations 🙂

  13. YAY!!!! That is total happiness right there! To not only get your name, but to KNOW that it’s you! Awesome!! 😀

  14. Awww…this is lovely. The other day my 15mo said something I didn’t understand. She kept repeating it and still nothing. Finally, she pointed to herself and said, “Baby, me!” She had been trying to tell me her name. My heart just about exploded.

  15. Love. That’s all I can say. Love the writing, the story, the moment, the giggles, the drum, the love.

  16. Oh goosebumps! So happy for you. Hearing Mama is the sweetest sound.

  17. Wow! (I’m holding my hand over my heart) What a moment that must have been for you! I had one of those moments two weeks ago – my heart just about went to mush. It is the best feeling in the world when they really get it. Sweet stuff. Great post.

  18. Awesome, I love those beautiful moments. So glad you guys enjoyed your week!

  19. Tears.
    Big fat tears!
    My daughter who will turn 12 months on tuesday said Dada, bubu, Papa, even Kitty and I waited.
    I know right now she really doesn’t know who these people are but she was saying them.
    And then?
    One day she said mama.
    It was the best sound I had ever heard in my life.
    She still says it but its rare.
    I think this makes it sweeter.

    I am so happy for you.
    This post pulled at my heart and filled it with such joy for you!

  20. What a beautiful post, told from the heart. I am so happy for you and I can’t wait until my own 9 mo old gets to that point. It’s at times like these that you realize parenthood is a great thing after all. 🙂

  21. Truly one of the sweetest sounds ever. What an awesome way to end break.

  22. Oh honey, this was perfect. Please excuse me while I go squeeze my sweeties. Extra tight. XO

  23. Love this. My boy is almost 4, and I’m still waiting. We’re working hard; someday it will come for us too.

  24. Well that made my weekend, it’s such a special day the first time they say that..and my tears are mixed with smiles for you…maa maa. Xo

  25. Great post, and great blog. Well done.

  26. Oh WOW Mah Mah! How wonderful for you! I sooooo remember those first moments my dear, what a tremendous joy. ((((hugs)))))

  27. Aw. The life of a mom…

  28. It’s amazing how such a simple use of words can cause a whole wave of emotion. May it only be the beginning of years and years of open communication between mother and son!

  29. This is so sweet! I am waiting (not so) patiently for my “maa maa” moment.