i am again flailing

Welcome to another Monday.

Last week Monday I skipped McFatty because, well, I couldn’t post due to the move of the blog to wordpress.

And then I didn’t have time for many other posts last week either because every darn day was a busy one.

So here we are…back to McFatty.

The good news is that I have lost a pound.  I am now at 192.

This is good news even though it was over the course of two weeks because for one, I have had a rough couple weeks and may have been eating my feelings.

Also, I am a lady and that thing that happens to ladies happened.  Enough said about that.

So, to be a pound down after all of that?  That is good.

I also think that there was sure to be some weight gain except for five hours on Thursday I was doing this:

Now, that is clearly not me (I was behind the lens of the camera), but my students (along with a bunch of other classes) learned some Latin dancing for Hispanic Heritage month.

There were conga lines and salsa and cha-cha and mambo and meringue and much more!

And although I sneaked away each class period to take some photos?  I was so totally out there getting my groove on.  I even got a skirt for the occasion…see?

Oh yes, I was shaking my groove thing…salsa style!  By the end of the day I was walking like I was 180 years old.  EVERYTHING was sore!  It totally reminded me of how much I miss going to group fitness things at the gym.

I also shook what my mama gave me this weekend at my cousin Kelli’s wedding.

So I am pretty sure that is where that one pound went.  I danced it away!

The bad news?  The reason I am still flailing?

Work is still tough for me. I haven’t found a balance yet that allows me to get done all that I need to.  It just isn’t happening.  As I type this, I have stacks of grading to do.  For all seven of my classes.

I shouldn’t be blogging.  I shouldn’t sit and read a book. I shouldn’t just hang out.

I should be working whenever I am not, well, working.

But I can’t do that to myself.

So I flail.

But I only flail for nine more weeks.  And then the night classes end.  And I try to breath.

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About Katie

Just a small town girl...wait no. That is a Journey song. Katie Sluiter is a small town girl, but she is far from living in a lonely world. She is a middle school English teacher, writer, mother, and wife. Life has thrown her a fair share of challenges, but her belief is that writing through them makes her stronger.

Comments

  1. Woohoo! Congrats on being a pound down! Every journey starts with a single step. You will make it to your goals!

    • thanks! I think each pound down is a reason to celebrate…with a tall glass of no-calorie water! Ha! 🙂

  2. congrats on the pound down. i say whatever way you got there is a good way! love the salsa outfit and the “shake what my mama gave me” line– priceless! i’m so happy to have come across your site today! 🙂

    • thank you! I am glad you came across my site today too! Welcome…sometimes I can get all crazy up in here!

  3. Congratulations on the pound!

  4. I do not like the use of FAIL in this post. It does not matter how much piles up around you.. SERIOUSLY, your balance comes from the fact that you do blog and read a bit. No matter how much work you have you should ALWAYS make at least an hour a day for just you. That can be one hour to do just what you want!!! And that does not have to be Cort time or Ed time… YOU time! Let the work pile babe… at the end of life work is not going to make a bit of difference. Plus I think if you give yourself ONE hour for you each day out of 24 you might work, feel, and focus a bit better! I know you focus so much on getting it all done, but you have to remember YOU are number one!!! YOU are never a fail!!! Never.

    • um. I said “flail”, not “fail”.

      but yes, me time is important. and that is why i do take it. those things do have to get done. i can’t let it pile forever. the grading, the lesson planning. they have to get done. I can’t let it pile forever, but yes, i do need me time too.

  5. Courage Katie! You are on the right track and change takes time. Keep going the way you mean to go on. Good work with all the dancing. That’s fantastic.

    • Thanks, Kristin! You are so right about change taking time! When I am upset or stressed, it’s so comforting to fall back to my old habits. And the dancing? I wish I could do that all the time!

  6. Oh my dear…you should be blogging…you should be reading…you should be doing things that MAKE YOU HAPPY. Life does not revolve around work no matter how much we enjoy it. You need time for you too amidst all that. For your sanity. I know it is so so SO hard to juggle everything, but taking time for you and doing what brings joy to your soul is so important. Even if it’s only briefly.
    Don’t forget about you.
    PS. You are so cute.

    • Yes, I love to read and to blog. Those things keep me sane…they help me sort it all out so I can move on from the bad. So yes, I strive to keep the “me time” for sure.
      ps. thanks for thinking I am so cute. love to you.

  7. Hi! I’m new here but wanted to say I like what I see. I’ll be back! And congrats on the weight loss….every pound lost is…well, a pound lost. One more on the way to your goal! (And I speak as one who is down 28 and has another 52 to go…long journey, I know.)

    • welcome to my little slice of the internet! I am so glad you found your way here! yes, each pound loss is one more I don’t have, so it’s one little step in the right direction! HUGE congrats on being 28 pounds down! That is amazing!!! You are doing great!!!